These last couple of weeks of blogging have brought about some discoveries in myself. Folks start blogs for all kind of reasons, maybe one of them is to open their hearts and minds, and in doing so learn more about themselves. That wasn’t my goal starting this blog, but it has become a byproduct of doing so and in a good way.
It’s reopened the creative side in me, that has been missing since Chronic Migraine, Fibromyalgia, and Degenerative Disc Disease entered my life. My Mom taught me to crochet and I loved to make things for Christmas presents and such. I never became as good as my Mom was, but it was something that I enjoyed. I can no longer crochet, holding the needle and yarn, now causes my hands to cramp up painfully. I also used to bake and decorate cakes, in different sizes and shapes, I even did a wedding cake once! Hand cramps and being unable to stand in one place and position, makes doing that impossible anymore.
I don’t like talking about the negative side of migraine, that is why I was so thrilled to discover that blogging, has brought out my creative side. I feel as if I have finally found my niche, blogging for me feels like slipping on my favorite pair slippers. Warm, soft, furry and comfy!
It makes me feel productive again and gives me purpose, two things that are so important when you’ve become disabled by migraine. It is a chance to give back, share hope, humor, inspiration, support, encouragement, and love to my tribe! To make them feel better on rough days, give them reasons to smile, let them know they are not alone, and there is always HOPE!
Best of all I have discovered, that I can do this! To be honest at the start I wasn’t so sure, I started working on this blog in April. I was in the middle of an intractable migraine, working through brain fog as thick as pea soup. I became so frustrated that I cried, something I never do during a migraine. I set it aside for a while, after an inpatient trip to the hospital for infusion treatment, the AHMA Conference and then our 35th Wedding Anniversary Trip. I went back to it, because I was determined to make this happen, all the pieces just clicked together! Proving if you want something bad enough, you have to keep trying, never give up! I discovered a strength buried in me, wanting to be let free!
“There is no better high than discovery.” E. O. Wilson
Live with hope,