“I’ll be there for you
(When the rain starts to pour)
I’ll be there for you
(Like I’ve been there before)
I’ll be there for you
(‘Cause you’re there for me too)

Yesterday I had a rather rough day struggling with depression. I have clinical depression and anxiety disorder, which I take daily medication for. Being in chronic daily pain is enough to cause a person to become depressed. That is normal if the depression is short-term and goes away quickly. Clinical depression is a whole different game, it doesn’t play by the same rules. It is not a brief blue mood, this blue feeling hangs on and doesn’t let go and escalates if not treated properly. Depression is an illness that is rooted very strongly in my maternal side of the family with, my mother, her sister and their mother. They all battled with depression and for lack of a better term, all went through “nervous break downs”. My mother and grandmother have passed, but my aunt still struggles severely with depression.

Since starting medication I have done and feel so much better, with my depression. I still get blue moods like I did yesterday. Sometimes they are brought on by a migraine attack, I can get very moody, crabby and blue feeling during this time. When I’m in a long migraine cycle, like I am now, that makes the blue feelings, come and go at unexpected times. I can feel perfectly fine and in the next moment, feel weepy and very blue.

That was all background, let me get to the real reason of this blog. My Twitter feed yesterday had to do with saying, “I’m Fine” when really inside you are anything, but fine! Listing many thoughts one has, when they are depressed.

Several of my migraine tribe friends, read between the lines and reached out to give me their support and love. Letting me know that they cared! That is what I love about the migraine community, we stand by each during the ups and downs of living with migraine disease! It is never a one way street, with one doing all the giving and the other just taking! No WAY! It is a two-way street, everyday all the time, the way a good friendship should work!

Their kindness, caring and support, chased the blues away and brought the sun back out on my cloudy day! I love each and every one of you!

“Seems you’re the only one who knows what it’s like to be me
Someone to face the day with, make it through all the rest with
Someone I’ll always laugh with
Even at my worst, I’m best with you”

“I’ll Be There For You (Theme From Friends)”
The Rembrandts Lyrics

Live with hope,
Roni