“You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I hope someday, you’ll join us. And the world will live as one.” John Lennon
For some time now, I’ve found myself, feeling a little lost, out of touch, moody and blue. While I know the reason for these feelings, it doesn’t make them any easier to deal with. Being in constant pain, and having clinical depression is the reason. Dealing with intractable migraine and an increase in fibromyalgia flares, are causing my depression to kick up a notch. In my mind I know this, understand this, but it really doesn’t help.
After another long day of pain, listlessness, feeling as if I were a hamster running on its wheel, getting nowhere. Except I don’t have the energy, to run on a wheel, my fatigue is bone deep. I thought to myself, snap out of it sister, where is your hope? Hope isn’t a tangible thing, you can’t feel it, touch it, see it, you must have faith that hope is there. You can see hope at work, in the many who live with migraine and chronic pain, as they actively seek new treatments, other ways to manage their pain. Hope keeps them looking, instead of just sitting down and doing nothing more, accepting the status quo.
It dawned on me. that when your hope is low, you have to find a way to pour your own, to fill your “hope tank” you might say. Seek out quotes and sites, with inspiring, encouraging, uplifting messages. I find many such quotes on Twitter, Princess Sassy Pant’s & Co, Karen Salmansohn, and other Facebook pages. The “hope quote” I’m closing with is one of my very favorites!
“Hope is a thing with feathers, that perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all”
Emily Dickinson
Live with hope,
Roni
Roni,
I’m so glad that you are able to find ways to refill your “hope tank,” even when things are dark and painful.
Are there any other medications or Rx tweaks to try for your depression and fibromyalgia? I bought a portable light box to help with a lack of energy and blues that I’m experiencing. I think it’s helping a bit. The difficulty is that I have to angle it such that it doesn’t trigger a migraine, even on the low setting. I know that you are light sensitive so I don’t know if it would help you.
Is there anything that I can do to help? I’m always just a phone call away, once you get your voice back. Having a virus sure doesn’t help any of your other medical conditions.
I appreciate your honesty about how hard it can be to fight multiple chronic illnesses. Keep going to the “hope” well when you need it. I’ll be thinking of you and hoping for a respite.
Much Love, Mel
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Mel,
Thank you for your kind words and your support, they are very much appreciated!
Love,
Roni
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